Once Again: A Senseless Rant
The Perks of Being a Part- time Writer, Full-time Office Girl.
Heto na naman ako, mag-ra-rant. I have so many things to write but too little time. :( Ang dami kong pending na mga sulatin. Mga kailangang tapusin at mga dapat i-edit. Manuscripts and write-ups, why so dami? Isa lang ako oh. Kahit na nangangati na yung kamay ko at parang sasabog na ang utak ko para isulat ang lahat ng naiisip, wala akong magawa. I have to do first things first.
Bakit ba kasi mas gumagana ang pagiging writer ko during office hours? Eh hindi nga pwede magsulat pag mga ganung oras!
(Me talking to myself: )
Pasaway ka talaga Cielo! You always lead yourself to stress and depression. Tapos kapag may free time ka naman, what you do is just to lay down on bed, watch movies or koreanobelas, surf the net, fb and read books and mangas. Tapos minsan mas bet mo pa ang mag-drowing na mostly pang-abstract ang datingan. Paano nalang ang writing career mo na gustong gusto mo? What shall you do now? And still you can't give up your passion slash first love- which is writing because this is your life. There were times that you gave up on writing but still you keep on coming back. As if this was your true home that you can't leave and live without. What shall you do now? Lagi ka nalang ba madedepress o malulungkot kapag hindi mo nagagawa ang mga bagay na guston gusto mo talagang gawin? Paano na yan? Will Cielo still survive with this kind of struggle for her entire life? Yes you have big dreams and vision. But you don't have a mission on how to fulfill these. Nga-nga nalang ba forever?
(End of self talk and self sermon.)
Minsan ay hindi pala, kundi madalas hinihiling ko na sana mayaman nalang ako. Na hindi ako breadwinner at kaagapay ni Mama sa mga gastusin para nagagawa ko ang lahat ng gusto ko. At iyon nga ay ang magsulat. How I wish my office hours would only be filled with me in front of my own computer, writing all the things that I want to put down on notes. Sana lang talaga. Kaso hindi eh. I have to earn the other way. I have to do some things which are out of my passion because I need to provide for myself as well as for my family.
Mahal ko naman ang trabaho ko. And I'm so thankful for having a nice working environment. It was just we can never have the same love at the same time. May mangingibabaw pa rin talaga. Sana rin hindi na ako masyadong tamarin. Madalas kasi if I have time to write, ayaw naman magfunction ng katawan ko as a writer but just a lazy lad.
Nakakabaliw.
Whatever Cielo.
Just keep on writing! :) Take it easy. Take your time. Don't stress yourself too much. We can do this baby.
*Tap our shoulders*
#BipolarMode
The Perks of Being a Part- time Writer, Full-time Office Girl.
Heto na naman ako, mag-ra-rant. I have so many things to write but too little time. :( Ang dami kong pending na mga sulatin. Mga kailangang tapusin at mga dapat i-edit. Manuscripts and write-ups, why so dami? Isa lang ako oh. Kahit na nangangati na yung kamay ko at parang sasabog na ang utak ko para isulat ang lahat ng naiisip, wala akong magawa. I have to do first things first.
Bakit ba kasi mas gumagana ang pagiging writer ko during office hours? Eh hindi nga pwede magsulat pag mga ganung oras!
(Me talking to myself: )
Pasaway ka talaga Cielo! You always lead yourself to stress and depression. Tapos kapag may free time ka naman, what you do is just to lay down on bed, watch movies or koreanobelas, surf the net, fb and read books and mangas. Tapos minsan mas bet mo pa ang mag-drowing na mostly pang-abstract ang datingan. Paano nalang ang writing career mo na gustong gusto mo? What shall you do now? And still you can't give up your passion slash first love- which is writing because this is your life. There were times that you gave up on writing but still you keep on coming back. As if this was your true home that you can't leave and live without. What shall you do now? Lagi ka nalang ba madedepress o malulungkot kapag hindi mo nagagawa ang mga bagay na guston gusto mo talagang gawin? Paano na yan? Will Cielo still survive with this kind of struggle for her entire life? Yes you have big dreams and vision. But you don't have a mission on how to fulfill these. Nga-nga nalang ba forever?
(End of self talk and self sermon.)
Minsan ay hindi pala, kundi madalas hinihiling ko na sana mayaman nalang ako. Na hindi ako breadwinner at kaagapay ni Mama sa mga gastusin para nagagawa ko ang lahat ng gusto ko. At iyon nga ay ang magsulat. How I wish my office hours would only be filled with me in front of my own computer, writing all the things that I want to put down on notes. Sana lang talaga. Kaso hindi eh. I have to earn the other way. I have to do some things which are out of my passion because I need to provide for myself as well as for my family.
Mahal ko naman ang trabaho ko. And I'm so thankful for having a nice working environment. It was just we can never have the same love at the same time. May mangingibabaw pa rin talaga. Sana rin hindi na ako masyadong tamarin. Madalas kasi if I have time to write, ayaw naman magfunction ng katawan ko as a writer but just a lazy lad.
Nakakabaliw.
Whatever Cielo.
Just keep on writing! :) Take it easy. Take your time. Don't stress yourself too much. We can do this baby.
*Tap our shoulders*
#BipolarMode
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