I DON’T HAVE THE COURAGE YET

We talked again.

It's been a while.

But I guess I am not ready yet to say to you what I really felt before when you chose to walk away from me because of your fear.

You left me clueless and hanging.  

I don’t know if I even have to tell you what I’ve been through when you hurt me. 

Does it matter anyway?

Or maybe not and we just have to forget, to forgive and to move on with our separate lives. 

I don’t want to hold any grudges anymore. 

I am finally letting you go, our memories together, let’s just live it there, on the memory lane.

Though part of me still wants you to be my friend but I don’t know if it’s really possible without the thought that I am cheating my love.

You too!

If you already have your better half now, I don’t think it’s the best idea that we literally became friends again just like the way it used to be.

I want to ask how you are, what you are doing now and if you are just fine but I am not sure if I have the right to ask you that.

Of all the things I want to say to you, I just wish you well. 

ON LIFE AND MISTAKES

 

“It is not how we make mistakes, but how we correct it is what defined us.” 

This is a beautiful quote I got from watching a kid’s film entitled, “Wishmas Tree”

In life, we always make mistakes. We can’t avoid it. By choice or by fate we will really commit mistakes.  And it’s okay because that is life all about. 

Creating mistakes and learning from it. 

At first, I thought that when we learned from our mistakes, that’s it! But actually, it doesn’t. 

It is on how we correct our mistakes. 

In this life, we may fall and fail, but there’s always a way to rise up and correct our wrong doings or decisions. 

Never give up. I always live up to this saying. 

For as long as we live, there’s always hope. And as long as we live, there’s always a new morning and another new day that we wake up to, we have the chance to make ourselves better. 

Cheers to our better selves ahead!

ON SECOND CHANCE

In giving you a second chance,

And being with you again,

Starting all over again…

I am choosing everyday 

Not just to love you again

But it is also to forgive you

And go on with our life together.

You’ve caused me loneliness

But you are also my happiness

So, I gave it a shot.

I gave “US” a second chance

And I also gave you a last chance 

To prove that this gamble called, our love

Is worth to fight for

This is our fight together

To make this work this time around

We are a team

And more than lovers, so are we.

Note: Sometimes, love for the second time is worth a try. 

DO EVERYTHING THAT YOU CAN TODAY

 

We will never know what will happen tomorrow

We will never know until when we’ll live and finally leave

We will never know until when we can spend time with loved ones

Time will always be the most precious thing we have 

So, we need to use this worthy. 

Let’s do all the things that we can today

And spare the time tomorrow to be better

In this way, we are living our life in its fullest.

Do everything today.

So, if there will still be tomorrow, 

There’ll be more chances that we can do more.

YOLO with Precautions

We only live once so why not make the best out of it?

But we also die once, so above all, safety first. 

We will always be challenged to push to our limits

And once in a while, we should step out of our comfort box

And live our life beyond our normal days. 

This would describe YOLO. (You only live once)

But actually, even without going to places, travelling, daring ourselves 

To do extraordinary, it is just to simply appreciate the life that we have.

And also to love more all the people around us.

Less complaining but counting all the blessings that we have,

By simply living now, we are already beyond blessed and that’s one thing

We should be grateful for it.

Because of life itself, we get the chance to experience it!

We will never know, when our lives will end, but we know that TODAY 

Is the thing that we can control and do something about.

Let’s appreciate life more. Let’s be more grateful. 

That we lived even just for once. 

Thank You Lord, for the gift of life.

I wrote this journal entry after watching a Kdrama titled, Hello,Bye Mama. It is a story of a young mother who died of an accident and became a ghost that lurked around her daughter and husband. Five years after being a ghost, she got a chance to live again like a normal human being but it will never be the same way again like before. She can’t go back to the life she once had. 

She had a lot of realizations when she died, even the people around her. They have a lot of regrets and realizations when she passed away.