I Am Choosing You Everyday

I always have doubts and issues

I can always see your flaws

I used to think of leaving you

Because it seems that you can leave me too

Anytime you wanted.

I always get afraid that you may hurt me again

And the past full of pain may still happen

This is an everyday battle within

Of my emotions, of lovin’ and hatin’

But we all have a choice.

Even a no choice is still a choice

And we do our fate

So, despite of all the flaws and fears,

I am still choosing you every day.

Because you are my happiness,

You are my home.

To no more dramas, I just choose you.

Listening To Our Song

Bitterly smiles were all over my face when I heard our song again.

It’s been ages when I last heard it and it feels good to listen to it again.

But now in a more different perspective.

I may have forgotten the lyrics but not the memories it covered.

I tried to sing it too but I can’t keep up with its beat yet.

Yesterdays were clear, happy moments were revealed once again. 

And it feels good to remember all of those things again.

This song was an inspiration for me to keep going, 

to still continue reaching my dreams and pursuing my passion.

Thanks for the song we created together.

Thanks for the memories we both shared.

Thanks for letting me feel loved before.

Thanks for the happiness I once felt when we’re both in it.

Grateful to have you before, grateful that somehow there’s us once in our lifetime.

Friends

Lucky to have friends as your emotional support.

They can be with you whether your feeling down or happy.

They’ve got your back and you’ve got theirs.

You can share to them your thoughts and feelings,

Your celebrations in life and even challenges you are facing.

You may not meet each other frequently just like before

But with the thoughts of having them around is already enough.

I am also thankful to my friends that I have them.

They are filling my social tank and I’m glad to know that despite

Our own and individual busy lives, when we need each other,

We can talk to each other.

In these trying times, it is really better to have our emotional backbones

In this way, we can feel and know that we are not alone with our battles.

Thank you, Lord and thanks to life for the gift of friends.

Dear Friends, I've got your back.

That Dream (A Poem)

I dreamed of you last night

You were smiling so bright

You held my hand so tight

Let it not go with all your might

This brought back our yesterday

Those happy times when we talked all day

But you’re the one who gave ‘us’ up

Who let ‘us’ go and broke our hope

I opened my eyes and now I can see

The painful truth of our reality

That we can’t turn back time again

So that dream just made it possible to happen

Novel Series: Jane’s Mystic Resort

(Book 3 of The Adventure of Jane and Friends)

Date Written: Circa 2015

Yes, she was heartbroken.

But after three years ng mag-isang ‘pag-momongha’ at pagmumuni-muni, she has already moved on.

 Salamat sa resort na pinagkuhaan niya ng lakas at saya. She loves her resort so much that she would do anything and sacrifice every little thing she has for it. Dito nabuhay ang munti niyang pangarap na makahanap ng lugar na kailanman ay hindi niya katatakutan.

Her high school friends invited themselves para makita ang lunggang pinagtataguan niya at malugod naman niyang pinayagan ang mga ito na ma-invade ang ‘secret haven’ niya.

Perfect timing rin pala ang pagpunta ng barkada niya sa isla dahil sa panahong ito rin pala niya malalaman na katulad ng naging paghihiwalay nila Miguel, ay may tinatago ring hiwaga ang lugar na ibinigay sa kanya ng matandang tinulungan lang naman niyang tumawid ng kalsada.

Miguel plus Ken on this adventure equals awkward but not for her. Kasi nga daw naka-fast forward na siya.

As they unveiled the truth behind this paradise, matuklasan din kaya niya ang tunay na dahilan ni Miguel kung bakit ito nakipaghiwalay sa kanya noon?

On the other hand, eh ano naman kung malaman niya ang mga kasagutan? Ikakasal na si Miguel at siya  naman ay nakatakda na rin palang maging....

Novel Series: Ken's Weekend Adventure (Ken's Odnum)

This was written back in 2014.

  

Ken’s Odnum (Book 2 of The Adventure of Jane and Friends)

Her name is Chelly.

Salamat sa ex boyfriend niyang Rakistang manloloko at isa na siyang certified man-hater ngayon.  Her life has been in hell for the last two years dahil sa pagsunod sa pesteng puso niya. Nagrebelde siya but she’s now back on her parents’ arms para ituwid ang mga naging pagkakamali niya.

She’s only going ‘THERE’ para makumpleto na ang units niya at maka-graduate na  sa Marso. Pero sa pagpunta niya sa lugar na iyon ay mukhang hindi na yata siya makakalabas pa roon.

Titira nalang siya doon forever kasama ang ‘playboy’ na sobra niyang kinaiinisan dahil sa napakaguwapo nito. Mapanindigan niya kaya ang galit sa dibdib niya? 

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After seven months of being single again, isang SOLO, masaya at relaxing na bakasyon, yan ang hanap ng certified bachelor slash moving on guy na si Ken.

 Eh paano magiging masaya ito kung puro misteryo at hiwaga ang madadatnan niya sa piniling lugar na puntahan?

He also never imagined in his wildest dream vacation that he would found love at this very unsuitable place at mukhang sa maling babae pa yata tumibok muli ang puso niya.

True love nga kaya ang natagpuan niya sa kakaibang lugar na iyon o mananatili siyang NGA-NGA?

Prologue

I was running with her. “Bilisan mo malapit ng magsara ang kuweba!” Sabi ko sa kanya. Mabilis naming binabagtas habang magkahawak kamay ang madilim na daan patungo sa liwanag na unti unti ng lumiliit ang sinag. Tanda na malapit na nga talagang magsara ang bukana ng kuweba. And for the worst, makukulong na kami rito habambuhay.

But on the other hand, okay lang naman kung makulong kami rito forever and ever kasi kasama ko naman siya. Yun nga lang, paano kami kakain, maliligo, matutulog at kikilos sa madilim na madilim na lugar na ito? Yun ang mas malaking problema.

“Teka lang naman, hindi ako runner!” Reklamo niya. At sanay na sanay na ako sa bibig niyang laging bukas almost 25/8.

“No choice, kailangan mong magpaka-runner muna ngayon.”

“Pero pagod na ako.” Tumigil na siya sa pagtakbo at bumitaw na rin siya mula sa pagkakahawak sa akin. “Kung-kung gusto mo, mauna ka nalang. Hinihingal na talaga ako.” Tila hapong hapo na niyang sabi. Pag nakalabas kami dito, promise, araw araw ko siyang yayayain mag-jogging para masanay siya sa takbuhan.

“Adik ka ba? Syempre hindi kita iiwan.” May galit sa tono kong sabi sa kanya. Hindi pwede. Walang maiiwan. Well, maliban sa mga foot prints namin at tumutulong pawis sa sahig. Yun lang. No more no less.

“Hayaan mo na ako. Kung makakalabas, makakalabas. Kung hindi, hindi.”

Hinawakan ko siya sa magkabila niyang balikat. “Listen, sabay tayong pumasok rito, sabay rin tayong lalabas.”

“Pero natatakot ako. Alam mo namang-…”

“Trust me, hindi mangyayari yon.” I assured her.

“Pero paano kung-…”

“As you trust me, trust your heart also.” Agaw ko sa sasabihin pa niya sana na puro negative vibes lang naman.

“Ayokong-….”Ayan na naman siya.

I put my pointing finger to her soft and kissable lips. Natatakam tuloy ako. Ulam lang? Takam talaga? “Shhh… Everything will be alright. Makinig ka lang sa puso mo at ituturo niyan ang daan papunta sa akin.”

“Pero kasi na-…”

“I said listen to your hea-…”

“Teka nga! Kanina mo pa pinuputol lahat ng sinasabi ko ah. Sisipain na kita palabas ng kuweba na ito!” Ayan na, lumabas na naman ang pagiging dragonesa niya.

Naku naman talaga. Panira ng moment eh. At sanay na sanay siya sa bagay na yan. Promise.

Breaking The Promise

A Poem

(copyright)

I still hold on to the yesterday that we had

And I still love and want you so bad

Even though you already let me go

You don’t love me anymore, I know.

We’ve already said goodbye for many times

We even had heartfelt thanks and countless cries

We also had each other’s hugs and final kiss

But here I am, still holding on to an old promise

A promise that we’ll never let each other go,

Choosing “US” everyday that’s all I know

But people change and so our feelings

Happy moments will have sad endings

This is hard and has put my heart into broken pieces

But all I want is for your happiness

It’s about time to finally let you go

And break the promises that once we’ve hold on to

I wrote this poem, reliving the pain I felt when I got my heart broken years ago.