A message for you
warning: wala lang! :)
Today is May 30, 2015 and it’s been almost two months since we started talking with each other. It all begins with your message saying Hi Cielo! And I said Hi too. You found me sensible maybe because of the things that I am interested at. I love creative writing and during my big spare time, I spend it with less fortunate kids.
Our conversation went on and on. We then knew each other deeper because of a game that I propose that we can play. And that was “20 questions” wherein we’ve got to ask each other alternatively ten questions without repeating the questions that has been already asked. You became amused again because of the facts about me that you have discovered. And I was kind a related on the things that you’ve been through especially on having a relationship with the wrong one. You’ve been with her for four years and I’ve been with him for seven years. Our break up reasons we’re almost the same that’s why I couldn’t understand why you found me amazing or the heroine type. Ha-ha! But then I really thanked you for being so appreciative of me. I just couldn’t realized and accept the great things that you were telling me about myself. For me, I was just a typical girl who fell in love and loved someone with all the best that I can.
We then started calling each other and on every end of our conversation I will always found myself smiling because of the things that we are talking about. Plus the fact that you’ve got to sing me songs while playing your guitar. I do appreciate it a lot. It makes me feel so special that this is the first time that I’ve experienced it.
You never ceased to surprise me with your petty gestures and acts. Just a simple greeting of “Good Morning” up to the “Good night”, it always touches my heart and I keep on believing myself that what you are intending to tell me is the best meaning of it.
To be honest, you made me cry already. Wait, don’t panic yet! You made me cry because of the self realizations that I’ve been through. Don’t think of it the bad way. What I mean here is that you were the one who told me good things about myself that I never heard before but then I know to myself that it was all true. I was just too blind to see it for myself. Things like I am beautiful inside and out, I have a good heart, I am amazing, I am a sensible woman, I am humble, I am a good person, and many more. Some may see this as “pambobolas” only. But I know that deep inside myself, I deserve all these praises. Thank you for all these things that you were continuously telling me.
I started to care and to worry again for someone that I barely know and sometimes I am getting scared about it. Am I ready to fall again? Or the harder question is, “Did I fall again already?” I don’t know yet. All I know right now is that all my concerns for you are genuine and I want you to be well in everything you do every day and you will be just fine. I care for your health, your studies and your current condition. I just want you to be okay even if I’m not inside your life. You have so many dreams to fulfill and I do hope that you will reach all of it.
You found me bittersweet. In times, I have this bitch mode but then you realize that I can be this sweet. Yes I am bitter because of the past that I’ve gone through and you truly understand it. Even my worst side, I already warned you about it but you remained to stay. And I was touched.
When my heart was broken, my life was back in zero. And when I was currently lost about my life goal – trying to re-plan it once again, you became my counsel. I thank God for letting me know someone like you who appreciates Him more than I do. God connected us and that’s one great thing of knowing you. You also never cease to share with me His words that you know by heart. You are a man who is full of wisdom and the most appreciative one about human that I used to know. Every time we talk, I am happy and this is a true story. For the last two months of my life, my day wouldn’t be completed if I didn’t have the chance to talk with you. I learned many things through you and I’ve got to understand and accept different perspectives.
Why am I writing this right now? I’m not sure of my reasons either. I am writing this now maybe because, I just want to put on words my current feelings towards you or maybe also to lessen this overwhelming feeling that I already got for you, or maybe because the writer mode in me was on. Ha-ha.
As of this writing, I can already feel that you like me and we are exiting the friend’s zone. As what you’ve said, I got you already. You don’t want me to leave. Of course I won’t. And as what I’ve said to you, I never leave and it’s people who are leaving me. You then said that you’re different and you chose to stay.
Let’s make this one step at a time, cherish every moment that we are talking with each other and let’s take it slowly but surely. Wherever this may lead us, I will always be here for you. And oh well, I’m starting to like you too.
Thank you for always telling me that I am worth the wait because I am Cielo and this is me - your dear one. All your efforts to get into me is truly appreciated, my dear two. I just hope that you will stand by for all your words.
Trust is a big word that we have to gamble in this life. We can trust without loving. But we can’t love someone without trusting. To make this work into the next level, we must learn to give it to each other. I’m getting there dear two. Just wait for me. I do hope that you will trust me too.
We both know that we are in the stage of knowing ourselves, our life goals, our individual dreams, and living our life separately with different plans. I don’t know either on when will be the right time for us to get into a deeper relation - more than a simple acquaintance or a friend or a talk-mate. I think we just have to enjoy each other’s company for the mean time. Let’s not rush into “it”. I want to know you more, to understand you more and of course to trust you fully. Yes, I am fragile. Yes, I am weak. I got hurt easily and crying is my favorite hobby. I am currently on the thought of, “I don’t want to be with the wrong one again.” But hopefully (the soonest), I can finally say to myself that “whatever it takes me, you are worth the pain” and I am ready to gamble again my heart. Yes, I am currently not a risk taker, but I will get there soon and you’re on the first list on who I want to take this gamble with. (Apparently, you’re the only person on the list, ha-ha-ha!)
Time Check: 12:23 a.m. May 31, 2015
warning: wala lang! :)
Today is May 30, 2015 and it’s been almost two months since we started talking with each other. It all begins with your message saying Hi Cielo! And I said Hi too. You found me sensible maybe because of the things that I am interested at. I love creative writing and during my big spare time, I spend it with less fortunate kids.
Our conversation went on and on. We then knew each other deeper because of a game that I propose that we can play. And that was “20 questions” wherein we’ve got to ask each other alternatively ten questions without repeating the questions that has been already asked. You became amused again because of the facts about me that you have discovered. And I was kind a related on the things that you’ve been through especially on having a relationship with the wrong one. You’ve been with her for four years and I’ve been with him for seven years. Our break up reasons we’re almost the same that’s why I couldn’t understand why you found me amazing or the heroine type. Ha-ha! But then I really thanked you for being so appreciative of me. I just couldn’t realized and accept the great things that you were telling me about myself. For me, I was just a typical girl who fell in love and loved someone with all the best that I can.
We then started calling each other and on every end of our conversation I will always found myself smiling because of the things that we are talking about. Plus the fact that you’ve got to sing me songs while playing your guitar. I do appreciate it a lot. It makes me feel so special that this is the first time that I’ve experienced it.
You never ceased to surprise me with your petty gestures and acts. Just a simple greeting of “Good Morning” up to the “Good night”, it always touches my heart and I keep on believing myself that what you are intending to tell me is the best meaning of it.
To be honest, you made me cry already. Wait, don’t panic yet! You made me cry because of the self realizations that I’ve been through. Don’t think of it the bad way. What I mean here is that you were the one who told me good things about myself that I never heard before but then I know to myself that it was all true. I was just too blind to see it for myself. Things like I am beautiful inside and out, I have a good heart, I am amazing, I am a sensible woman, I am humble, I am a good person, and many more. Some may see this as “pambobolas” only. But I know that deep inside myself, I deserve all these praises. Thank you for all these things that you were continuously telling me.
I started to care and to worry again for someone that I barely know and sometimes I am getting scared about it. Am I ready to fall again? Or the harder question is, “Did I fall again already?” I don’t know yet. All I know right now is that all my concerns for you are genuine and I want you to be well in everything you do every day and you will be just fine. I care for your health, your studies and your current condition. I just want you to be okay even if I’m not inside your life. You have so many dreams to fulfill and I do hope that you will reach all of it.
You found me bittersweet. In times, I have this bitch mode but then you realize that I can be this sweet. Yes I am bitter because of the past that I’ve gone through and you truly understand it. Even my worst side, I already warned you about it but you remained to stay. And I was touched.
When my heart was broken, my life was back in zero. And when I was currently lost about my life goal – trying to re-plan it once again, you became my counsel. I thank God for letting me know someone like you who appreciates Him more than I do. God connected us and that’s one great thing of knowing you. You also never cease to share with me His words that you know by heart. You are a man who is full of wisdom and the most appreciative one about human that I used to know. Every time we talk, I am happy and this is a true story. For the last two months of my life, my day wouldn’t be completed if I didn’t have the chance to talk with you. I learned many things through you and I’ve got to understand and accept different perspectives.
Why am I writing this right now? I’m not sure of my reasons either. I am writing this now maybe because, I just want to put on words my current feelings towards you or maybe also to lessen this overwhelming feeling that I already got for you, or maybe because the writer mode in me was on. Ha-ha.
As of this writing, I can already feel that you like me and we are exiting the friend’s zone. As what you’ve said, I got you already. You don’t want me to leave. Of course I won’t. And as what I’ve said to you, I never leave and it’s people who are leaving me. You then said that you’re different and you chose to stay.
Let’s make this one step at a time, cherish every moment that we are talking with each other and let’s take it slowly but surely. Wherever this may lead us, I will always be here for you. And oh well, I’m starting to like you too.
Thank you for always telling me that I am worth the wait because I am Cielo and this is me - your dear one. All your efforts to get into me is truly appreciated, my dear two. I just hope that you will stand by for all your words.
Trust is a big word that we have to gamble in this life. We can trust without loving. But we can’t love someone without trusting. To make this work into the next level, we must learn to give it to each other. I’m getting there dear two. Just wait for me. I do hope that you will trust me too.
We both know that we are in the stage of knowing ourselves, our life goals, our individual dreams, and living our life separately with different plans. I don’t know either on when will be the right time for us to get into a deeper relation - more than a simple acquaintance or a friend or a talk-mate. I think we just have to enjoy each other’s company for the mean time. Let’s not rush into “it”. I want to know you more, to understand you more and of course to trust you fully. Yes, I am fragile. Yes, I am weak. I got hurt easily and crying is my favorite hobby. I am currently on the thought of, “I don’t want to be with the wrong one again.” But hopefully (the soonest), I can finally say to myself that “whatever it takes me, you are worth the pain” and I am ready to gamble again my heart. Yes, I am currently not a risk taker, but I will get there soon and you’re on the first list on who I want to take this gamble with. (Apparently, you’re the only person on the list, ha-ha-ha!)
Time Check: 12:23 a.m. May 31, 2015
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