"NO"

Written by: CieloAmethyst

Dec. 27, 2016

An open letter to the guy who thought that there’s a chance between us…

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NO.

I’m sorry if this is my answer. I just feel and I already thought a million of times that it is not “Yes” and would never be. I have a lot of issues and reasons why I ended with this decision but let’s make it short and simple.

I can’t imagine my life being with you forever. I can’t see myself walking down the aisle and it’s you waiting for me there at the end with your best bud.  Growing old with you and having a family of our own, I just can’t foresee it.

I considered a lot of things and there are so many differences between us stating a clear proof that we’re not gonna make it right in the long run. We will just be wasting each other’s time being together then eventually will come to its end.

Sorry for being too futuristic and guarding my heart over protectively. Time and past experiences mold me into this.

When my heart got broken, I set up my standards too high that I was too afraid to fall again for the wrong one. Again, I’m sorry if for me, you didn’t meet those tick boxes and considered you as not the right one.

I tried to get along well with you. I swear that I tried to like you and go on with the flow. But I guess I really must go on the opposite side.

I stepped down to meet you half way but my mind reminded me that I must not and my heart told me that I wasn’t ready yet to gamble her fragileness again.

You’re a great guy! If not then I shouldn’t talked and hang out with you from the beginning. But the famous zone nowadays is really our boundary – you know the F-zone, as in “Friend’s zone”.

Pardon me for realizing this late but I guess it just came right in time. Sorry for letting you waste your time with me. Sorry for letting you feel that there’s a thin chance for you and me.

I really tried but I guess there wasn’t really a must-try-shot for us.

I wish you happiness and I know you will find her soon – the right one for you, as I will find mine too.

Thank you for everything…friend.