I Dreamed of You Again Last Night

 

Date Written: May 16, 2022

Why? 

This is the question

I first thought

when I woke

in the middle of the night

after dreaming of you…again. 

The last time I dreamed of you

was last 2020 (based on what I remember). 

It’s been awhile since

we last talked to each other. 

This is what I dreamed about last night. 

Our communications were open once again. 

And it was as if the past feelings

were there once again.

And it felt guilty. 

Maybe subconsciously,

I was comparing you

to my male best friend

that’s why I have dreamt of you. 

I also thought of

my other male friends yesterday. 

Though there were only a few,

I’m grateful for having them.

Then I thought of you

if it would be nice to have you

back as a friend again.

But I also thought

that I was able to live my life

without you even for just as a friend. 

Maybe that thought

triggered my mind

to dream of you last night.

Wherever you are right now

or whatever you do,

I wish you well always. 

May you find happiness

in everything you do and you choose. 

I Started Reading the Bible Again

Date Written: January 19, 2022

Today, I started reading the bible again. 

And this was my takeaway. 

Philippians 1:9-11 

"And this is my prayer, that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight.

So that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ - to the glory and praise of God."

My reflection:

I am thankful for the challenge I faced last week because I felt closer to God again.

I talked to Him more, I cried in Him, I told Him all my worries and fears and let Him control

my life. 

When I lifted up everything to Him, my heart was light once again. I stopped overthinking and I turned to motivational books again.

My prayer:

Thank you Lord God for the blessing I received. 

I may have faced one of the hardest challenges this year but You were with us. 

Please remind me to always humble

myself, think better and remove all

the hatred in my heart. 

May You always protect us from all the evil and please always give us good health.

And this I pray, In Jesus name. Amen.

Back on Track

 

Date Written: January 15, 2022

January 1. 

This is the time where we mostly do our New Year Resolution. It is something that we want to change. 

Mine started a bit late this year because of what happened to us. 

And I may say that I’m back on track on the 15th day of January. 

On this day, I started to dream again. 

I felt so productive on this day because I was able to update my planner and my e-journal. I even opened my art journal and put a new entry in it. 

I also continued to read the book by Nora Roberts. 

And then for the following day, I started reading a new self-help book entitled, “Winning the War In Your Mind”. I also started reading a new romance novel book by Colleen Hoover, “It Ends With Us” for the creative part of my brain. 

I was also back on my thinking chair/desk.

When I sit there, my brain is always working. My notebooks are on and same with my personal laptop. I write whatever I want. I watch tutorial and inspiring videos. I do whatever I think will make me productive.

This is me when I am in my most productive state. 

And I am sure that I am really back on track!

Thank you, Lord God, for the strength and wisdom. 

This is me now, choosing to move forward. 

Living to love. Loving to live.