Finding Emhara (Day 7/30 of #NaNoWriMo Challenge 2023)

 

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Finding Emhara: Unsent Letters For My Love

Chapter 7 – Unsent Letter # 7

 

(A Letter for my First Real Love)

Date: July 18, 1998

 

Hello to you, Richardson Rob.

We may be met at the wrong time but for me, it was the most perfect first love.

I broke my promise to my dad. Sa kagustuhan kong magrebelde at ma-disappoint siya sa akin, I give in to the urge of our barkada.

Ikaw na lang daw ang shotain ko dahil single and available ka naman.

And maybe that was one of the greatest regrets I ever made as well.

I should have given value to our friendship rather than making it as more than friends.

 

It was a fun love at first. We were inseparable.   

I can say and I believe that we were madly in love with each other.

I loved it when I took naps on your shoulder and you were singing a song for me.

Ang bango-bango mo pa.

You were holding my hand as if you would never let it go.

My supposed to be last year in high school has been more colorful because of you.

Pero dahil nga sa kagagahan ko, hindi ako naka-graduate. Hindi ako nasakabay sa inyo na mga kaibigan natin.

But it’s okay as I’ve learned my lessons.

What wasn’t okay is that you forgot your promise – you forgot about me, you forgot our love.

Or should I say, sinadya mong kalimutan?

When my days were a blur, you made it darker.

You would find a reason not to talk to me.

Lagi tayong may pinag-aawayan.

Ang ending, matagal tayong hindi mag-uusap.

Pinoproblema ko na ang pamilya kong wasak na, pati ikaw dumagdag pa.

Pati puso ko winasak mo.

Until one day, we crossed each other’s path on a newly opened mall.

Kasama mo si Erika – one of our friends as in within our closest circle.

Magka-holding hands pa kayo. Ang kakapal ng mga mukha ninyo.

Pero parang ako yung may ginawang kalokohan at ako yung tumakbo palayo sa inyong dalawa.

Tumakbo ako ng CR para umiyak.

I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t speak.

Gusto kong magwala at magpakalasing pero nag-promise na ako nung time na ‘yon na magtitino na ako.

So, what I did?

I went to Mary’s house at sa kanya ako umiyak nang umiyak.

Yes, it was painful. My fragile heart was broken once again.  

But as Mary said, it was a blessing in disguise. God made a way for me to know, to see and mostly to realize that you were not meant for me.

Isa ka lang hangin na dumaan sa buhay ko.

And because of the lessons I’ve learned on our cute little love story, I was grateful.

I am finally letting you go.

Masasabi ko’ng naka-move on na ako sa’yo.

Salamat sa lahat-lahat.

I am finally writing this all down dahil tapos na ako sa’yo.

Ang lahat nang mapapait na emosyon ay isa na lamang ala-ala ngayon.

 

Thanks for the happy memories though!

And I wish you well.

 

It’s me – finally setting you free out of my heart,

Emhara.